Almost Home

[Verse 1]
Before I say goodbye, I wanna say hoorah
Another day that I'm spending faded
Driving with no destination
Flying with no hesitation
I'm trying to stay alive
Crying, feel like I'm hated and I can never go back
I fucking miss you everyday, I'm hoping that you know that
My mind is overwhelming, thank the Lord I have my notepad
As a kid, I was so bad
I haven't started giving a fuck since I was a baby drinking my sippy cup
Sitting up every single night time tryna make my life right
Bitches press my buttons like it's type write
My entire life has been a sci-fi, maybe a comedy, bit of sodomy, honestly
Got a thot that be calling me but I do not be answering
Every bitch is a thot to me nowadays, no one flattering
If they are, then I haven't met 'em, but I fuck her anyway
'Cause I been drinking E&J and she rubbing on my body like fucking Aladdin
I wonder how many years of my life I'll waste on rapping
That or succeed, nobody know what's gonna happen
I'm taking vacation to the shore, but I always wanted more
I guess I oughta be grateful for what I'm having
I'm grateful I can spend my time just sitting, relaxing
But deep down, I know I gotta make something happen
My boys are counting on me, Heaven knows I do it for them
You ain't gon' see the fucking truth till I win, yeah

[Verse 2]
These bitches tell me I'm the dream man
Until they see that I don't give a damn
Then they show their colors like chameleon
You can watch me plot the bullshit out like it's a business plan
Don't know if I'm ever gonna grow up, bitch, I'm Peter Pan
I'm way too different from myself from just a year ago
Next year when I'm 20, I'll look back and say the kid was slow
Next year when I'm 21, I'll probably be an alcoholic
Try to check on Maw, it went to voicemail, but at least I called it
I'm thanking God I got some profit, see it in my wallet
I quit taking everyone's shit, 'cause they all fucking clogged it
I'm shocked they didn't fall in
The awfulest people keep talking, they're evil
I'm stopping to see all I got is peaceful
I believe in God, the question is, does God believe you?
Does he pity, does he envy, does he wanna be you?
Being stoned a lot has got me gone and see through
Too far to reach you

[Verse 3]
I don't wanna fall in love again
No, I stay by myself, I don't need no one's help
Seems like all that I do anymore is waste time
Don't want to get older, I'm losing my mind
I'm so fucking sober that I just might cry
I don't wanna hold her, so do not get closer
I am not the one that's gon' be your help
'Cause I need to be helping myself
Getting focused on that green cash flow
The assholes say I got trash flows
Lil' motherfucker, tell me what you cats know
I'm out of state, I'm on vacation with No Face, we chilling in a castle
We gon' be right here until the pack's home
All these fucking nights that I'm alone, I just wanna go back home
The place where I can stay and make my tracks
I don't got no fucking bitches or no friends
People switch and play pretend
I'm just fine with being lone in the end
The castles in the sand, build them just for them to die in the wind
Living pretending like I don't wan' make amends, that ain't life, homie
I'm lonely getting so high
Thinking 'bout what my family and my bros will do when I die
Wake up and try to make today different
Make mistakes, I can't fix them
Today it rains, lay down and listen
Take some time out my prison
Can't you see the way I'm living?
I'm almost home, I stay chilling
Yeah