All the things I couldn’t say

[Verse One]
Maybe it's not what I'm use to
Or what I want it to be
I'm sorry

All I need is a thought of you
To make me fall in deep
Oh I'm sorry

[Chorus]
But I can't keep doing this
It's not you it's me, I just want to kiss
Underneath moonlight
Do we have time?

[Refrain]
But you live so far away
I think I might just have to wait, baby
I don't wanna leave so soon
I'm scared that you'll move on in time for me to bloom

[Verse Two]
The truth is, I'm jealous about your life
Compared to mine it's almost disrespectful, out of spite
But I don't wanna see you fail
I wanna see you thrive, bail me out of hell

My whole life, filled with fucked up lies
I don't know how the hell to think without suicide
And now I'm, crawling out
Hoping that you'll be there for me to figure this out

[Pre-Chorus]
It's like a game for my mind, not paradise
If I roll the two same dice, then I must die
Russian Roulette nearly, but not physical
It's like a mental warfare I'm sorry I can't be whole

My words are slurring as time goes on
My brains falling apart, can't wait to be done
But how much longer must I wait?
All I need is you... but you're too far away

[Chorus]
And I can't keep doing this
It's not you it's me, I just want to kiss
Underneath moonlight
Do we have the time?

[Refrain]
But you live so far away
I think I might just have to wait, baby
I don't wanna leave so soon
I'm scared that you'll move on in time for me to bloom