All That Was Is Not The Same

[Verse]
All these demons I got, just don't wanna face
I've been feeding just to get up of this place
Imma drag this pistol and press it to my face
I don't give a fuck I let it go and waste
I've been trying but [?] never change
[?] things will never be the same
Imma put my footwear on whoever say my name
Fuck this I won't let it die in vain
I'm so sorry but you eating up my time
Can't worry bout damn things we left behind
Always thinking bout you got me trapped inside my mind
Damn, [?]
I've been posting shit that ain't easy to describe
All black, balenciagas looking like a diamond
It's these thing I have to quit but I stay in love
The feeling underneath my skin I'm getting paralyzed
I pop this drugs inside my brain
It's not enought to stop the pain
All that was is not the same
I'm stuck with all these chains
I don't wanna look back anymore
I don't wanna have to feel that pain again
I don't think [?]
I ain't never making that mistake again, no
To the end, no
Do you remember the tears?
I'm so sorry but you eating up my time
Can't worry bout damn things we left behind
Always thinking bout you got me trapped inside my mind
Damn, [?]
I've been posting shit that ain't easy to describe
All black, balenciagas looking like a diamond
It's these thing I have to quit but I stay in love
The feeling underneath my skin I'm getting paralyzed