All Real Always

Sometimes you realize in your life
It's just not worth fighting for it any longer
No matter how hard
No matter how strong you are
The time comes to give up
It’s dark at first but eventually the light will cast upon the shadows
A shell of a man in a hellified land
I never ran just had to bring myself back
To the way I was before
The state of mind and place in time
In self-made euphoria

I've been waiting for this
Don't know if you noticed
But the time for us to be one has come
What wasn’t really was
I knew this all along just had to wait for you see
What I really meant to you and what it was you meant to me
Looking up above there's clouds in the sky today
Picking up where we left off, call me up and I'm on my way
It's not okay I'm not alright
But it's here to stay
So come inside
Welcome to this place I made, let's getaway
We'll take a ride off to the shoreline
Always told you since we met it’s your life not mine
So do as you wish I won’t hold you back
You always knew this, didn't do that
Too bad but I cut my losses and move on
It didn’t last, we couldn't handle it
Looking back I laugh, fuck the past I'll sample it
Get over it, it's over with
But don’t forget, remember why you're here
It makes no sense when thought about
I'm almost out, you always brought me down
Forgot about it now

I've gone all out
From the bottom on out
It's all me now
Your inconsideration for me as a human being
Got me thinking, missing dreams they're victims to the feelings leaving
Release me I'm needing freedom from this beast, the demon you've become
Making it ten times worse the next time I see you, it only is there is no was
Because of reasons leading to emotions you displayed
We're talking trust, we're talking lust, we're talking pain
A little angry cuz of what I gave compared to what I didn't receive
It's a shame you didn't stay to see what I became
What I think to be the downfall wasn't your fault at all
If I got the chance to do it again I would
Because I believe that you have put me in position to make myself feel at home
Thinking I'm in heaven, dwelling deep in hell listening to headphones
Loved it and wouldn't trade it, take me to the other land
Music's all that real to me, everything else is illusion

Emissary of the Cemetery

Waves inside of me colliding
Shores have forced us out to sea
Above the sands beneath belief
In pieces at least at peace finally
Tide will leave eventually
We've got to give it proper time to breathe
And empty itself complete
If I don't dream then I don't act
Time will pass with idle hands
And I know that I don't want you back
Pacific exposure
I'm the only person that knows you
And it's strange to me we've grown up
Still in hell a lonely soldier
Never changed much
Setting like a sun shining rays of blood
Can't replace us
I've got the flame touch
You can feel the inner movement
Spiral as I get closer
Let it learn you burn your whole soul
Make it fertile
You're supposed to let go like I did
Holding onto broken promises
All it is
This is Haven's End
Fate lost hope gone
Hell comes where I live
Emissary of the cemetery with a dead wish