The song is about Intrasystem conflict between two alters who deal with sexual trauma in different ways, one with hypersexuality, one with revulsion to all things sexual.
“hey guys isn’t it so cool how both sex revulsion and hypersexuality are equally valid responses to sexual abuse. isn’t it crazy...
[Verse 1: NYL]
Hurts
It hurts me
Grace
Forgets me
Oh, feel the heat between my thighs
Kiss the gun between my eyes
[Verse 2: SAROS]
Hollow pits filled in with
Borrowed feelings from within
Tell me, say it isn't so
All your shame begins to show
Come, listen to my name
Trust, me we're quite the same
Never thought you'd stoop so low
You never learned to say no
[Verse 3: NYL]
Veins, and ecstasy
Pain
Free me from the shame
Cut against the grain
It's begun to rain
[Verse 4: SAROS]
Lost in this little paradise
A hedonist's escape
Sit back, take control
The power you can reclaim
Don't go to waste
A rose by any other name
Could smell just as sweet
As the day you lost your flame
[Bridge 1: NYL]
Little voices
Find all that hurts me so appealing
Whispering
What do they reveal
About my feelings?
[Verse 5: SAROS]
No use in hiding
Isn't it exciting?
The pressure rises
Lose yourself to your vices
You're weak and worthless
Dirty apparatus
Might as well embrace it
I know you like the taste
[Verse 6: NYL]
Stop
Dirty, filthy, horrifying
Perfect femininity
Humiliating, aching
Break my mind
And mar divinity, oh
Dirty filthy horrifying
Falling through the ecstasy
Humiliating, aching
Satisfying curiosity
[Interlude]
[Verse 7: SAROS]
Hurts
It hurts me
Pleasure
Devotee
Oh, I can't help but love it so
Let's see how far we can go
[Verse 8: NYL]
Empty
Hearts filled in with
Pretty
Superficial parts
Tell me, I know when you lie
Is this how you want to die?
Come, listen to my name
Trust, me we're quite the same
Never thought you'd stoop so low
You never liked saying no
[Verse 9: SAROS]
Trapped
Enraptured with love
Free me from the cuffs
I'll come back for more
I just couldn't get enough
[Verse 10: NYL]
Lost with your head up in the clouds
A cowardly escape
It hurts, and it dwells
There is nothing to reclaim
Don't piss me off
You play your stupid little games
Compulsive actions
Guess who has to take the blame
[Bridge 2: SAROS, NYL]
Little voices
Find all that I like so disgusting
Whispering
Saying I'm inherently corrupting
Can't be blamed
This is how I know to do my healing
Don't you know
There's no room for sex in healthy feelings
[Verse 11: NYL]
No use in lying
It's not worth surviving
The pressure rises
No better than your vices
You're weak and filthy
Hope you're feeling guilty
God, how could you like this
You were made for this fate
[Verse 12: SAROS]
Stop
Pretty, sickly, satisfying
Do what you want to with me
Initiating, waiting
Just as long as you would never leave
Pretty, sickly, horrifying
That's all I could ever be
Initiating, waiting
It'll stop hurting eventually
All or Nothing was written by Carbon Monoxide.
Carbon Monoxide released All or Nothing on Sun Feb 23 2025.