All on you

I was an animal for my whole life
Thinking I could ignore it
It burrowed further than I could see
Yours was a good way
It always seemed wonderful
But I'd come in the bad way
Dig holes through myself
Play dead for comfort
I wasn't numb
I was feeling your thumbs
Pushing out from behind my eyes
And I know that it hurts
You would tell me
'Look, there's nothing I can do
It's all on you'

I wanted another
I couldn't see the world you were in
After seeing you in my light
I couldn't force the song you wanted
I can't do it
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I am not numb
I am feeling your thumbs
Pushing out from behind my eyes
And I know that it hurts
So you tell me
'Look, there's nothing I can do
It's all on you'