All I Ever Wanted

I can only say these things to you while you’re sleeping
I hear the hum from the wires, the sounds of the morning creeping
I lie awake and pretend you can hear me

You tell me that you’re scared that you’re turning into your mother
I feel myself turning into my father
We could lie to each other like they do and say we’re so happy
It’s easy when you’re young and you still want it so badly

And I feel my heart pounding
And I think I might scream...

I can tell you that you’re all I’ve ever wanted, dear
I can utter every word you’ve ever hoped to hear
I shudder when I think that I might not be here forever, forever, forever

In the night you whisper like a ghost and you look so shaken
You're so quiet and small and you tell me you want to be taken
I just never think of you as the kind of girl who would say that
And you suddenly seem like some faceless thing in my grasp

Your eyes alight, your face aglow
It's the face of someone I don't know

I can tell that you’re all I’ve ever wanted, dear
I can utter every word you’ve ever hoped to hear
I shudder when I think I might not be here forever, forever, forever

And all I can think is that it must be a kind of rebellion
To arm your fears like soldiers and slay them

I can tell that you’re all I’ve ever wanted, dear
Through the din while you're breathing, while you're sleeping here
You wake and you ask me if I'm gonna be here forever, forever, forever

Your face so twisted and your eyes alight
I want to tell you I can change you when you cry at night
But I'd be lying
Love is defying