‌all i ever might be

[Intro: guardin & Andrew Cramb]
So, around that same time, uh, that I started like freestyling, like writing more, uhm, I had just gotten fired. The only other job that I worked apart from music, I was a janitor at a hospital
Stop
Deadass, hahahaha
Oh my god
Yeah, so I worked overnights, uh, it was like 12 'til 4 AM, just like four-hour shifts

[Verse: guardin]
I don't think I've
Ever been this fucking stressed in my life
​​creature pt. 2 isn't finished, I lied
Just to get them off my back though, I tried
I can't create when I'm dying inside
Moving this weekend, I wish I could fly
Don't have my car, but I still gotta drive
Pack up the U-Haul and tell my mom, "Bye"
Hop on I-86 thinkin' 'bout why
Am I like this?
I don't like this
All my friends are enemies behind my eyelids
Losing sleep, I drive all week and raise my mileage
"​guardin cut his fucking hair, now I don't like him"
Depression take me by twenty-five
Fuck going out, I'll just stay inside
"This isn't you," I say to myself
Every night lately, I contemplate suicide
"Oh, but you're famous online so your life must be great"
They say, but that's a fucking lie
Crawl into bed around 7 AM​
And the headaches come full force, I wanna die

[Bridge: guardin]
Oh, oh, oh (Da-da-da-da, da)
Oh, oh, oh (Da-da-da-da, da)

[Chorus: guardin]
Hey, Hollywood, would your people ever like me?
Misunderstood is all I ever might be
Hey, Hollywood, would your people ever like me?
Misunderstood is all I ever might be
Hey, Hollywood, would your people ever like me?
Misunderstood is all I ever might be