ALIVE

[Verse 1]
I won't miss you like the way I did before
What you did to me is fucking unacceptable
I don't feel no love from chemicals
Took this trauma as a momento
And I still feel like you'd apologize if you really meant it
Do you still regret it?
It don't fucking matter because you still said it
Now the sun is setting over the horizon
You're the last thing on my mind
I no longer want to die

[Chorus]
First time in forever that i wanna stay a-
-live
I no longer want to die
Yeah, I wanna stay alive
-live
I no longer want to die
Yeah, I wanna stay alive

[Verse 2]
It feel like a weight has been liftеd off my shoulders (shoulders)
If I run away, I wish that I had been bolder (to do it soonеr than i did)
I don't want no kids because of you (no no no)
And I still won't If you wanted to (no no no)
Remember I was 6 years old, you fucking raped me
Thank you, Mom, for all those thoughts, I can't erase them
Thank you, Dad, for all the times that you would beat me
Yell in my face: I "was a kid", you "didn't need me"
It's the reason I can't fucking talk to other humans
Terrified they'd scream at me, just the way that you did
Anxious to come out my room, I don't even do shit
Can't explain myself, everything I say is excuses
Still got these scars today, but I'm far away
You can't follow me, I'll fly
M-I-A, bitch, I'm offline

[Chorus]
First time in forever that i wanna stay a-
-live
I no longer want to die
Yeah, I wanna stay alive
-live
I no longer want to die
Yeah, I wanna stay alive