Agony

If I die tonight, I know I’ll probably burn in hell
I’m a sinner, look in my eyes, it’s not hard to tell
My heart is beating but my tears are turning into hail
My mom is crying, I’m singing about hurting myself
My mom thinks I'ma make somebody kill their self
She don’t understand, she don’t see how my music helps
That hurts the most, ‘cause I am the one that needs the help
Don’t wanna talk, I’ll just place my feelings on the shelf
I’m all alone, got no team, it’s always just been me
Lone wolf, howling to the moon, for all to see
Depressed as fuck and I’ve been living in my agony
Blank stare like the masked man from Halloween

Horror films are nothing next to my anxiety
My life’s a slasher, I can’t stop this shit from happening
The water burns and I’m trying hard to kill the sting
My life is cursed so there is no point in saving me
Horror films are nothing next to my anxiety
My life’s a slasher, I can’t stop this shit from happening
The water burns and I’m trying hard to kill the sting
My life is cursed so there is no point in saving me

Old scars start to fade like my memory
When I die, I just hope someone remembers me
My reveries are filled with broken remedies
Bloody sheets, Buck-10, I’ll just cry in peace
Hear the demons scream, while my icy wrist bleed
The kids are dead, and I know a few that need me
They need to know it’s okay to not fear the beast
The monster’s here, just know that he will never leave
The monster lurks, just don’t let him near your energy
Depression sucks, every day, I just wanna leave
But something’s telling me: "Lightning, just let it be
Your time will come, don’t give up... everyone will see."