Again

Who do you think you are?
On what is your answer based?
Be careful because everything can change
In a matter of seconds all of your recollections
Might become all that you've got left
It feels like fear
Like someone slapped me in the face
And then punched me in the stomach
My security: erased
It's like alone when one's habitual impulse
Has no subject, no object. Just a wrist without a pulse
And I want to do it all again
Dumbstruck and disenchanted -
I won't take anything for granted
That was the worst mistake I made
Harmless remarks, for example these:
"Wet behind the ears" and "Weak at the knees";
They never seemed that harsh - a simple call for concern
But now they hurt so much. It's the hardest way to learn
Promise, whatever happens, you won't take your ambition
And put it all into his mouth
There are some days I can't get out of bed because
When I'm awake I'm reminded of what it's like without you
But every other second passes
And I'm expected to be some paragon of strength
Well, let's hope I make it through this week
And I'm gonna do it all again