Afterthought

I woke up to a missed call from you
At three am
And I hate the way my heart skipped a beat
Even when
I wrote down a list of reasons I
Should let you go
It's not that simple though

And it's not even fun no more
I cling to ideas I had once
To feelings you gave me before
These butterflies became bees
I'm a swell of anxiety
But for reasons beyond reason
I just want you
But you rarely think of me at all
But you rarely think of me at all
I'm just an afterthought

It's the same old pattern
Again and again
I won't hear from you for a couple weeks
Then all of a sudden
You'll spark my hope up like a match
And blow it out
And say you're messed up
Well, so I am now

And it's not even fun no more
I cling to ideas I had once
To feelings you gave me before
These butterflies became bees
I'm a swell of anxiety
But for reasons beyond reason
I just want you
But you rarely think of me at all
But you rarely think of me at all
I'm just an afterthought

What about that bracelet with your initials on it?
And the trip to Paris you said you're planning?
Well, all my friends think I lost my mind
I can't disagree
So don't prove them right

'Cause it's not even fun no more
I cling to ideas I had once
To feelings you gave me before
These butterflies became bees
I'm a swell of anxiety
But for reasons beyond reason
I just want you
But you rarely think of me at all
But you rarely think of me at all
I'm just an afterthought