This song is about how Caleb felt/feels when trying to deal with his depression. In this song he’s desperate to find a new and better “normal”, but it seems like nothing he does changes anything.
[Intro]
I must be doing this all wrong
Should be happy, but I'm searching for the voice I lost
Guess I'm just human after all
I guess I'm just human after all
[Verse 1]
I woke up with the same dark feeling
Head on the ground and my thoughts on the ceiling
Another dream where the light is burning out
I don't know what to chase, my hope is erased
I look at myself and I don't know my own face
I just got fixed and I'm already breaking down
(I just got fixed and I'm already breaking down)
[Pre Chorus 1]
How do I feel when my wounds aren't healing?
Why do I stop when I start believing?
[Chorus]
I must be doing this all wrong
Should be happy, but I'm searching for the reasons why
Puts my head in overdrive
I thought I had this figured out
I should scream, but I'm still searching for the voice I lost
I guess I'm just human after all
I guess I'm just human after all
[Verse 2]
You're no good, suck it up and change it
The way you feel is a little outdated
You'll never change if you'd rather hear the lie
I don't know what to say, I'm never okay
I try to dig deep and there's nothing but pain
I'm singing my songs, but the words just don't relate
(I'm singing my songs, but the words just don't relate)
[Pre Chorus 2]
It's hard to live when my wounds aren't healing
Why do I stop when I start believing?
[Chorus]
I must be doing this all wrong
Should be happy, but I'm searching for the reasons why
Puts my head in overdrive
I thought I had this figured out
I should scream, but I'm still searching for the voice I lost
I guess I'm just human after all, all
[Bridge]
There's not an ounce of hope inside of me
I wanna die before I fade away
[Chorus]
I must be doing this all wrong
Should be happy, but I'm searching for the reasons why
Puts my head in overdrive
I thought I had this figured out
I should scream, but I'm still searching for the voice I lost
I guess I'm just human after all
I guess I'm just human after all
I guess I'm just human after all
Afterall was written by Caleb Shomo & Joe Cotela & Joel Madden & Zakk Cervini.
Afterall was produced by Caleb Shomo.