ADHD

Rxmedy Verse 1:
Ever since I was a kid I knew I didn't fit in
Always felt on the outside like I was just lookin' in
Always wondered why people acted the way that they did
Didn't want to be the weird kid so I tried fitting in
Put this mask on my face, focused on passing my grades
I was smart so I could smash it out, no stress on my case
Lookin' back I see that that was the start of my downfall
Nobody saw a problem so fuck it, we move on
So I kept goin' through it, made a couple friends but I always seemed to loose 'em
We'd be friends until the end, I'd pick up all thеir movements
Walk like thеm and talk like them till suddenly they're moving away
I'm loosing my faith, then the cycle would repeat slowly building the pain
Sometimes they'd come back for a week or day
But it'd never be the same no it'd be the same

Rxmedy Chorus:
I've been strugglin' all my life
Feel like I've wasted away so much of my time
I don't even know how to be
I guess it's just my ADHD
You've got so much pain to answer to
So much shame you've put me through
I wish it didn't have to be
I guess it's just my ADHD
Yeah, it's just my ADHD
Yeah, it's just my ADHD, yeah
It's just my ADHD, baby
It's just my ADHD, baby
Yeah, ay, uh huh

Rxmedy Verse 2:
I was already secluded by high school
Accelerated learning class, cause I'm smart I guess I'm just not like you
So what did I do?
I only made friends with the smart kids too
I guess that's not so bad, right?
Chillin' up in class, right?
Scared to socialise with other people I'm around, right?
Then I see my grades and they weren't bad but now I'm nowhere near the best
My self-confidence is gone and all the work done got me stressed, uh
I felt depression kickin' in, never felt this before
Everyday it felt like a chore, self-worth was on the floor
Like what the fuck happened, it felt like dark magic
I felt my soul slowly collapsing
That shit was so tragic like, what the fuck
I'd fucking had enough
I went to see my doctor told her shit was getting tough
I went to a psychologist and after the first session, he told us
'Because of his mood swings I think he has bipolar'
My mind was already drowning in negativity
The thought having bipolar was breaking down my energy
The motherfucker was wrong, where the fuck did he get his degree?
I was stressed out for months until my dark thoughts just disappeared
I realised as soon as school work started to ease
Everyday just felt like a breeze, depression was history
But as life would get more stressful it would reappear
I understand that my ADHD can make me feel, like

Rxmedy Chorus:
I've been strugglin' all my life
Feel like I've wasted away so much of my time
I don't even know how to be
I guess it's just my ADHD
You've got so much pain to answer to
So much shame you've put me through
I wish it didn't have to be
I guess it's just my ADHD
Yeah, it's just my ADHD
Yeah, it's just my ADHD, yeah
It's just my ADHD, baby
It's just my ADHD, baby
Yeah, ay, uh huh