Acceptance Is The First Step

[Verse 1]
I grew up so hungry
I never could get a mouth full
Of your love, my one drug
I loved it, you didn't love me
You taunted me with your aspirations
Taunted me with your promises
Taunted me like a love lost
Taunted me with your bring me downs.
Why does every girl always go south?
Why don't I look down?
Hurting time
I've heard the pain
Got passed myself
But not today

[Verse 2]
I held the keys to my wrist
Felt you break my hand
I held the keys to my wrist
I had the gun in my hand
And I pulled
I pulled

[Verse 3]
A prank
My life's a joke
It's just a prank
But we aren't bros
I really wanna stab myself with a pen again
In blue ink, I'm a friend again
I'm afraid again, you're gonna leave me.
Oooh ohh
You're gonna, you're gonna, you're gonna, you're gonna, you're gonna, you're gonna, you're gonna, you're gonna leave me
You're gonna, you're gonna, you're gonna, you're ahhh-
You're gonna, you're ohhh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ooohhh
Oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh

[Verse 4]
I'm gonna lock myself with my neck in mind, just and me and you
all to ourselves.
I always do this to myself, always do this to myself
I trusted you with my heart, you gave it to someone else
Why'd you do that to me? When you know what I went through?
Why'd you do that to me? What in the hell did I do?
I'm a sick boy at face, I'm a sick boy don't you know?
I'm a sick boy at heart, I wanna go home.

[Verse 5]
Every night I stare out of my window, waiting for a girl in the black carriage to pull up and pull out my ticket.
And take me with her, back to the beginning of life.
I wish I could just do everything over again.
I wish I could everything over and trusted no one.
And not been a fuck up.
And disappointed everyone.
I don't even know what else to say
(Sniff) Fuck this man.