Abyss

[Verse]
I hit my peak, depressed almost every week
Suicidal tendecies they sleep deprave me
But I gotta carry on shout out to triple x- t, Uh
Wait a moment, the king has spoken
I keep making all these songs cus my heart is broken
You already knew that, let's take it far back
To a time when loving wasn't so criminal
Let's take you to a time when saying I love you wasn't so subliminal
My heart can't take this damage my levels they say critical Uh
Fuck my release date, this anxiеty stay killing me I might expire today
I'm just a liar today, watching еvery useless part of my body decay
I'm talking bout my heart and my brain, I think I'm going insane
I'm lowkey numb to the pain, I'm talking heartbreak
Fuck, my wrist ache prolly cus I cut it again
I don't even know why she fronting again
You ain't learning, you'll just hurt him like you just hurt me
Pull the trigger on the gun with no safety
Please someone save me, this ain't a song bitch I'm dying inside
Ain't no Rick and Morty, no ones to save me this time
Am I suicidal? Well, fuck it whos acting?
God, I'm so quick to spazzing, I'm getting straight to the action
I'm getting- Just forget, I don't even think you fucking feel it
I make music, all of you watch from afar
I don't think I'll make it to eighteen, look my past was never clean
But, I got faith in myself, I got faith-
Let's not talk about it, I feel Imma crash and burn but still won't talk about it
I'm going way too deep let's talk about it, take some steps back
Fall off the balcony, Being alive I commit blasphemy
Fuck, I shouldn't be here, I shouldn't be near
I don't think I'll be anyone, just rolling in the abyss, a hit, and miss
I thought I did sum, on the real I thought I did sum
I thought I felt something, but I guess it was nothing
I guess I'm stressing for nothing, gotta put my mind onto something
Look, I thought I fell in love, well false alarm, I'm back to self-harm
Woah, hold on don't look at my arm, uh
That was years ago, my heads clearer thought
I still drink from time to time, man that feelings so sublime
I keep using that word cus it's my favorite
Gather my memories that are my favorite, and then sit back and burn em cus I hate it, uh

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