Abyss

[Verse]
Stuck in a loop in cycled depression, feel my body stressing
I can't sleep if I wake up from message of the movement of my lady
Feel my energy is fading, feel my soul crying
Yet I'm still trying, I am not dying
Death kill, murder self from a voice that's
Up in my head, feel like I'm stuck in abyss
Miss when I was just a kid, nah, I was the same then, thinking same sin
Love my momma, but I'm barely home 'cause it bring up the same shit
Feeling worthless, feeling trash because her man was on my ass
And made me feel like I wasn't shit when I was really just a kid
Constantly said I wouldn't make it in this world 'cause I'm so forgetful
Guess I'm better dead because my mental
Funny thing is, nothing changed
I'm still forgetting everything but, nigga, look how far I came
And I ain't kill myself
No, I ain't kill myself