this is just a song about fucking things up and being aware that you’re fucking everything up but u can’t be bothered to change it
[Verse 1: soph]
I feel so out of place
Wanna fly to outer space
To get out this place
I'm such a fucking waste of space
I'm such a fucking waste of space
I'm pessimistic, that's true
I won't get up unless there's something to do
I just wanna be with you
But you don't even talk to me
What the fuck am I supposed to do?
I just wanna fucking be with you
[Pre-Chorus: soph]
I'm sick of everything
I won't do anything
To make myself feel better
Guess I'll fucking sing
Out all my problems
Till the end of time
And by the end of time
I just mean when my time is up
[Chorus: soph]
I'm still fucking up
At 5am
Haven't slept and I'm wide awake
I'm too fucked to ask for help
So I grab my blade
You know the story, you've heard it a thousand times
A thousand times more
It'll happen again
And again until I'm fucking dead
Inside and out
Will you just shut your fucking mouth
This shit makes me sick to death
I don't wanna take another fucking breath
Of this shitty air
[Verse 2: glxsgxw]
And I am scared of my shadow
'Cause staring at it, makes me think
How bright I used to be
And I
Stare at the hole in the gallow
And finally I think I'm gonna jump
'Cause
I been alone all my life
I have no friends 'cause I can't socialize
Yeah I barely scrape by
The dread of existence
The love that I'm missing
The feeling's quite distant
Wish that I had listened
To everything she had to say
All her words just went right past my brain
Now I'm feeling consequence the pain
Unbearable I watch my mind decay
Bridge : (glxsgxw)
Watch me through the cracks, I can't take it
Watch me go insane, I can't take it
Watch me through the, cracks I can't take it
But I never wanted this
I never wanted this
Chorus: (soph and glxsgxw)
I'm still fucking up
At 5am
Haven't slept and I'm wide awake
I'm too fucked to ask for help
So I grab my blade
You know the story, you've heard it a thousand times
A thousand times more
It'll happen again
And again until I'm fucking dead
Inside and out
Will you just shut your fucking mouth
This shit makes me sick to death
I don't wanna take another fucking breath
Of this shitty air
a thousand times more was written by GLXSGXW & soph/onborrowedtime.
a thousand times more was produced by soph/onborrowedtime.
soph/onborrowedtime released a thousand times more on Sat Aug 29 2020.