A Song for the Abused

[Verse 1]
I come from broken homes and student loans
Flipped upside down cars, glass shattered, and broken bones
A mobile home that ain't big enough for five kids, two dogs, a daughter, and a stepfather who don't give a shit
To most I sound the same, but you don't live inside my brain
You thinkin' I'm delirious, you ain't experience the pain
It's like a virus that lives inside your iris and trickle down your face when you cry
'Cause you can't hide it inside
It's uncontainable, this feeling is unexplainable
These lyrics ain't еnough to express the unrеstrainable mess in my chest
I'm broken, empty, bruised, and depressed
I'm obsessed with the thought of moving forward, I guess
I'm a mess
And I can't help it, but I'm doing my best
Moving forward with my life while I'm buried in stress
I'm married to stress
It seems that I'll never get clean
'Cause every time I try to quit, I just fall back in my speech, shit

[Chorus]
I won't sleep tonight
For my demons hide behind my eyes
Psycho suicide
Wake up when I hear them in the night
I won't sleep tonight
For my demons hide behind my eyes
Psycho suicide
Wake up when I hear them in the night

[Verse 2]
And I ain't sleepin' well
This life's a livin' hell
While I'm dreamin', these demons keep creepin' out their cell
I'm not the type to scream or cry when I'm in need of help, but maybe if I let it all out then I'll be feeling well
These condescending thoughts have got me comprehending thoughts to run away and break the locks inside my brain until I drop
It's all that I can offer you, the heart of a broken bandit
I'm the only one confused, while I lay here open-handed
And honestly, I'll probably be dead by the time I hit twenty-three
Drownin' in bottles of hennessy
Wakin' up off a better sleep
Fuck it, I'm runnin' out of energy
I keep on losin' my weight 'cause I never eat
Caught up in all my anxiety
I cannot speak, I'd rather stay quiet
I open my eyes
I look to the skies
I hope there's a god that can shed me the light
I'm lonely at night
I wake up in flight
There's shadows in the back of my mind
Am I seein' it again?
Fight it away
Findin' a way to escape all the demons inside of my junk
Imma foil all my junk and lose it and bury my feelings inside as I lose it, I

[Chorus]
I won't sleep tonight
For my demons hide behind my eyes
Psycho suicide
Wake up when I hear them in the night
I won't sleep tonight
For my demons hide behind my eyes
Psycho suicide
Wake up when I hear them in the night

[Verse 3]
It's a hard-knock life and you won't go to heaven
Or will you fall upon your knees when death begins to beckon?
Of all the things that we've tried to keep away from the devil, but we still say that we'd doubt if someone carries a weapon
Broken
I know that I'm a hypocrite
Was lookin' at the mama's house and knockin' like a perfect kid
It's been a rough fucking life
But I got songs I can write
To put these feelings to light
To push them outta my sight
Push them outta my sight like I can run from them
Gimme some more, maybe I can learn to love again
But what's wrong
You just white lie
Then you, bye-bye
Like you, no ties, yeah
Going fast 'cause I'm runnin' from the questions
Pray to God, can you hear me?
When will this end?
Are you listenin'?
I will listen
I know, I know
I feel hollow, hollow, yeah