​a song 2 think to while debating on killing urself

[Intro]
In my restless dreams, I see that town. Silent Hill. You promised you'd take me there again someday

[Chorus]
You wanna end it here 'cause you think it will give you closure
If I was you, I'd just go do it, but that's just me, I'm tweakin'
All these thoughts inside my head, I swear they creepin', creepin'
Every time I make another song, my [hatin' deepest, deepest?]

[Verse 1]
All my accomplishments, they overshadowed by my scary thoughts
I can't put nothin' together, I swear that I'm feelin' lost
I'm overthinkin', overshare, yeah, I'm overbearin'
Close myself off 'cause I can't keep up my [impairs?]
It's shallow, I'm usin' you to feel better
I say you wrong, but you right
My hatred real, but I lie
I make these songs 'cause they make me feel better deep in the night
I only got me a shell, your heart is stronger than nails
My insecurities, they eat me up every single night
I got problems talkin' to you, I don't know what words is right
I'm so isolated, damn, I'm so indirect
Tryna tell you, but you yellin', comin' at my neck

[Verse 2]
I can't open up, I'm scared, yeah, I'm fragile, bro
Postin' on my spam, yeah, I'm textin', talkin' 'bout my lows
Regret it in the morning, damn, that's where all my pride is headed
All those wrongs I did to you, you think I'm goin' up in Heaven?
You help me so much, but I still don't feel indebted
And when I tell you that I know you really gon' regret it
I'm tryna better myself, I know it ain't workin' out
I'm stuck in, screamin' too much, I know you can't hear the sound

[Chorus]
You wanna end it here 'cause you think it will give you closure
If I was you, I'd just go do it, but that's just me, I'm tweakin'
All these thoughts inside my head, I swear they creepin', creepin'
Every time I make another song, my [hatin' deepest, deepest?]

[Outro]
You don't let me, you (It's shallow, I'm usin' you to feel better)
You don't let, oh (Skin)
You don't let me, you
You don't let (Do you know why you hate yourself so much?)
Maybe it's because you can't be in your own—