A Not So Special Guy

(Verse 1)
Hola it’s my birthday
And I still feel the same
I think I did all my growing
When I was living in pain
I still am
But it’s easing
Because I’m freeing my soul
Puff on a Black an mild
After smoking some fire dro

Maybe sip a little
Got myself some crown and some coke
I like vanilla but the OG is the best way to go
I Did this for awhile now but I’m switching my tone
Still lighting up a wood
But I don’t need the Gar or the moat

Made the black Jack 21
Surprised I didn’t meet the gun
Got to bust 22
Will my luck run outta juice
I’m hiding like a convict
Honestly that’s how I live
Really wasn’t ready to be famous
That’s just how it is

Hermit niggas
Caught boy see em lurking nigga
Don’t think that I’m worthy to be sitting
With the working winnas
Steady gonna pass
Now I guess I gotta hurry nigga
I don’t want to lag but I dont rеally wanna
Worry either

(Chorus)
Cause I’m doing mе
Wanna party on my birthday
I don’t wanna sit
And be quiet on my birthday
If I got a wish
I’d be wishing to be okay
Flipping on a switch
So I can party on my birthday

(Verse 2)
To many problems
I got a list
I’m guessing that a closet won't solve em
I’ll make a fix
Steady tryna cover my trauma
Make a way to Nirvana
I don’t got time for the drama
Dont make a sitch
Here we go

Crash on the sofa
I lost a back bone
Steady falling into the boba
It’s like a white room
I’m waiting on a blast from the past
Think back to when I was brash
See myself being glad
I had the star shoes

Walking on the sidewalk
Blood on my sock
Rolling down hilly
For thrillies
Now that’s a blind spot
Waiting for the crash boom
Better ask the bad dude
I know the brother of who
They want to die too

There’s a fear of some judging
But who cares
Followed by a feeling of something
That’s not there
Almost like I make how I feel
About stares
I don’t wanna be in the corner
When I’m scared

(Chorus)
Cause I’m doing me
Wanna party on my birthday
I don’t wanna sit
And be quiet on my birthday
If I got a wish
I’d be wishing to be okay
Flipping on a switch
So I can party on my birthday

(Bridge)
Kinda wanna change
But I kinda wanna stay sound
Maybe I can wait
Gotta make a wave now (x2)

(Outro)
My time
Cut a new way in a red line
Last night
It was my fray
For the last light

My right to the old blade
And the eye sight
It’s nice
When a new face
Gives a good fight

Oh my
How much I’ve changed
In a year now
I just wanna live free
Grow a beard out
Music is a nice thing
When it’s not loud
I won’t ever make a scene
When I step down (x2)