​a million shades of red

[Intro]
Angst is for everyone

[Verse 1]
I need to rap to rest my vocal chords 'cause I've been screamin' too much lately
Blow the dust off these records, make somethin' crazy
I'm just tryna be a man, my mom would be proud that she raised me
If she was still here to see it, it still hurts for me to think about it
Since age eleven I've struggled just to believe in anything on earth including myself
I finally found a therapy between the sound of a snare and an 808
That helped me stay on top of my mеntal health
But now I wonder if the music rеally medicine, or is it more like slow poison?
Carbon monoxide kill you without warning
And I gotta know if all the pressure's similar
There's gotta be a reason why, artists tend to die the same integer, yeah
I'm twenty-seven now, so here's to hopin'
Tomorrow when it's time for me to wake, my eyes will open
But if they don't, then rest assured that I was chosen
This world ain't get the best of me, I promise that I'm copin'

[Chorus]
I try to close my eyes and sleep my pain away
I toss and turn, it's 4 A.M., I'm still awake
I've tried to open up my mind and see the world as good instead
I can't find comfort in no lie, this life's a million shades of red

[Verse 2]
I need to rap to rest my vocal chords 'cause I've been screamin' too much lately
The girls that follow me are extra emo
Black lipstick on all of these misfits
And long sweatshirts that cover scars from past attempts to have their wrists slit, yo
I kinda see how some artists will get this crazy savior complex
When people tell you that you're the reason they're breathin'
But I wasn't the one that brought you down from off that ledge
That was you and God's providence, nothin' that I had said
But if Elon's right and life is a computer simulation
Then I'm askin', please, can we change the difficulty?
And turn the blood off while you at it, I ain't tryna cause no static
But is there a way that I can load my dead homies? No
Pour out some loose-leaf tea
Let's reminisce and talk about all of the things we've seen
The internet replaced our parents' set of TV screens
With somethin' sinister that centers on our self-esteem, yeah

[Chorus]
I try to close my eyes and sleep my pain away
I toss and turn, it's 4 A.M., I'm still awake
I've tried to open up my mind and see the world as good instead
I can't find comfort in no lie, this life's a million shades of red