​​​​​​a message to myself

[Verse]
I'm conflicted with myself, I'm really at my worst
I be trying hard to speak but when I do it hurts
I like it break it up, I break it up in paragraphs
I'ma tell you, yeah, my story listen up and don't be sad
I got issues with myself, the confidence is low (I can't take it)
Every single month a cycle of these episodes (I can't take it)
I bottle it up, I keep it to myself at night
Occasionally I post it on my story, delete it after night
There's something wrong with me, I got in this line for myself
I'm the type to cry, call you up, and tell you that I'm wеll
I like to lie about it I don't need you in my business
But somеdays feeling alone, I want somebody to tell my business
I think I'm looking for affection, I don't care who isn't
I need a hug, I need to reach out, yeah, I need a touch
I want you yeah, to say you love me or, am I doing alright?
I want you to ask if I ate, tell me yeah, goodnight
Kinda sad I got rejected, three times in a year
They tellin' me relationship isn't really appear
Then why can everyone else be happy with they love?
And yall expecting me to deal with it, I'm giving up
I know you listening and after this recording finna cry (I can't take it)
Hate myself so much I wanna go inside and then just cry (I can't take it)
And I'm the worst I swear, I deserve to die
Die
(Da, da)

[Outro]

You know why you hate yourself so much? Maybe it's because you can't be in your own skin
Maybe it's because you can't be in your own skin