A Long Time Ago

I’m having trouble forgiving
Very little left in my soul
I’m having the same conversations
I’ve had so many times before

I’m having trouble believing
Everything seems cloudy to me
One thing that I know for sure
You’ve got to keep looking to see

I looked away for a moment and happiness left
It was there, and then just gone
It calls from afar from time to time
Some days I just don’t take the call

I’m having trouble remembering
It returns every now and then
Today with the strength of a thousand suns
It has captured me again

Day after day, time passing time
The more that I search the less I will find
The more I have lived the more I will know
Everything happened
A long time ago

I’m looking for something important
Everything gets weaker it seems
Sometimes I walk into a room
I don’t look and I refuse to be seen

I can’t seem to hold on to faith
And I confuse myself with this line
Be it absolute or be it blind
It saved me so many times

Everything mattered
A long time ago

I stepped onto the path with a blind faith
Was more crowded then, than it is now
I have to admit I get lonely here
Remembering days gone by so, so fast
A world no longer mine

I can’t seem to find my family
I guess they waited as long as they could
I stayed the same boy that they loved and raised
But there’s no way they could have ever understood

Everything was beautiful
A long time ago