A Little Bit of Light

[CYNTHIA]
All that I’ve thought about is how hard he would slam that bedroom door
Every night after dinner
Wild-eyed and weary, from all those nights of fighting a war
Where no one was the winner
The missing pills from the medicine cabinet
The missing kid found passed out in the park
All those demons that he wouldn’t let up, that kept dragging him on through the dark
But there were moments
He had moments
With a little bit of light
In those moments
He was happy
He was trying still to fight
And maybe the battle he fought wasn’t won
But at least there were days when he let the light in
In those moments
A little bit of light

[CYNTHIA, spoken]
I don't remember the last time I heard him laugh

[EVAN, spoken]
Well uh- we used to laugh all the time

[CYNTHIA, spoken]
You did!?

[EVAN, spoken]
Well, he was-
Um- he had a great sense of humor

[CYNTHIA, spoken]
He used to love jokes!
When he was a little boy?
"Why did the chicken cross the road?"
He had a million different answers to that one!
One day, he said to me
"Mom, why did the duck cross the road? Because he wanted to prove he wasn't chicken."

[EVAN, spoken]
That's funny

[CYNTHIA]
I remember picnics and Little League and Sundays at the zoo
I remember how he smiled
The years of trick or treating
My Spiderman, he stood at four foot two
Such a happy child
But it seemed like I woke up one morning
My sweet little boy, he was suddenly gone
Something had switched off the light
And it seemed like it never quite came back on

There were moments
He had moments
With a little bit of light
In those moments
He had someone
Who was helping him to fight
And the battle he lost
He just couldn't win
But at least there were days when he let some light in
In those moments
A little bit of light

[CYNTHIA, spoken]
There were more of these, right?
More emails?

[EVAN, spoken]
Yes, yeah

[CYNTHIA, spoken]
I want to see everything
I would love to see everything

[EVAN, spoken]
Sure, definitely

[CYNTHIA, spoken]
Oh it's getting late
Sorry Evan, are you hungry?

[EVAN, spoken]
Oh, no no
I was just going to go heat up some leftovers at home

[CYNTHIA, spoken]
Why don't I cook something for you?

[EVAN, spoken]
Oh you don't- you don't have to

[CYNTHIA, spoken]
It would be my pleasure
What do you like?
What's your favorite?

[EVAN, spoken]
Oh uh, uh I don't know
Anything

[CYNTHIA, laughing]
Good, because that's my speciality

[EVAN, spoken]
Thank you

[CYNTHIA, spoken]
Thank you

[sung]
A little bit of light
A little bit of light
A little bit of light