A letter to you

[Jerma985]
Happy birthday, Miku! From- from me, Jeremy

Calm down, I'll just call Robert
G-g-g-gravee

[Clay0127: Verse]
Lit a cigarette, I call that bitch a dirty spark
Exhale, inhale; Backwards talk, I'm never dark
Lightside only, green is for a healing heart
Yeah, baby steps because I'm now relearning how to walk
As well as how to talk, if you wanna talk, you come to me
Cuz I'm too scared to walk over and start conversation
I get to shaking, and then my heart it's fucking racing
I'm so afraid, man, I'm trying but I move adjacent
It's like a hall of mirrors; Always walking out of place, and-
Into faces, look around and only see me, I need replacing
I've been replaced, man, I'm not the man that I used to be and
That's not hating, I just need to face it

[Clay0127: Bridge]
Usеd to pray for parties now I hope they stay away
Bеcause I gotta face the music 'fore I get lost to decay
Every time I smoke another, lose another day
I don't wanna be this way I know that I have gotta change

[Clay0127: Verse]
I always fight for meaning, it's never ending well
Yeah it's a war of feelings, I'm always losing, well
Damn, uh, I'm too quiet man, I keep it to myself
Huh, think I need some help, but I could never say that I'm unwell
Stress is weighing on my shoulders and it's not good for my health
And I used to try to blame it on the cards that I was dealt
But if I showed my hand to someone else I could've felt
The snow inside my heart begin to melt

[Clay0127: Bridge]
And you were so warm you made me change
Forms of matter, every single time you hugged me, I would melt
It annoyed you but I needed it, into your arms I fell
And the other day you out of nowhere called me on your cell

[Clay0127: Verse]
And since then every day it's the only thing I think about
I'm always wondering, what went through your mind to call me now?
I mean what the hell? Not that I'm complaining
But the memories were fading
Till you called and put them back up on the shelf
I really miss you so, I hope that this is more than just
A brief moment of weakness that you felt
It's not ephemeral
Love that long is more than an "oh well"
But right now I don't know
What you want, no I can't really tell

[Clay0127: Outro]
So, uh, if you could let me know that'd be great. Thanks