A Letter To U

Yeah, I shed tears if I'm alone
Even if I'm sitting in the car on my own
Every time I start to think about things going wrong
You might think the life is great
When you see a nigga driving BMW i8's
McLaren, Lambo like every other day
That shit don't mean a thing
These things still get inside my head
I still wish that I was dead, I swear

Damn, they say I'm flexing, I don't got it
Other niggas be whipping shit that I ain't scared to say that it's rented
Couple DM's from a couple of fans asking me "how did you get it?"
2K a day nigga but it don't make a difference
Yeah, cause I still have these thoughts all inside my head
And I still wish that I was dead
It don't make no difference, oh-oh yeah, I swear

And you
Sometimes you say things
That you know was gonna just get to me
And I'm craziest nigga that she know
But she still support me mentally
Cause at this point I'm so sure
Any other girl would've left me
And it's hard to do things right now
Like I was born a lefty (ooh)

You gotta check me out
If I'm doing things wrong, you gotta check me now
I can't free myself, you gotta let me out
I can't free myself, you gotta let me out
Bae just hold me down, bae just hold me down
Just make me a promise, you always be around
I don't wanna put that pressure on ya
But I'm finna put that pressure on ya
Yeah, yeah, yeah

And this one to the fans man
I promise I'll always be here
And I know it seems like I'm far sometimes
But I swear to God I'll always be near
And I know it sounds cliche to say but without y'all I wouldn't be here
And when I say I wouldn't be here, I mean physically, like mentally
And I gotta learn how to really stop but the things out there get to me
Be a better person, be a better mind for the people out there hearing me
If anybody is out there right now and you're listening
If you feel alone right now hit SoundCloud and just check on me

(Cause I been hearing things inside my fucking head)
(And I'm steady wishing I was fucking dead)
(And a nigga still wishes I was-)