A Lapse of Sanity

A night of expecting
Eyes of distaste
A fear of burning inside

Shadows of loss in
Self-hate and abuse
The substance that never subsides

A lapse of sanity
Is all I entrust
A moment of feeling in place

The colors seem thin
The walls closing in
Cold insanity's embrace

Death seems the only escape from it's grasp
A creature of soulless intrigue
Branded with curses and visions of death
A victim of mental disease

Punished for sins, I bear on myself
In quest to self-gratify
A grave made of skin for the weakest of kin
Buried below hollow eyes

Peripheral vision
Fading too thin
Voices drawing too near

Thoughts disconnected
Gasping for breath
Cornered irrational fear

A lapse of sanity
Is soon to combust
Lucidity falling from grace

The torch in the dark
A dwindling spark
Cold humanity's disgrace

Pray to the god that I never believed
I will not die unaware
Consciousness lost in a wake of defeat
Grant your breath for my repair

Cry out for those who I never aggrieved
Free me from my despair
Abandon me due to my own conceit

Wait for ascension
Soul separation
Hope for the light in
Dreams that await me