A Cry of Despair

[A Cry of Despair: Spoken Word]

I've had you on my mind lately
Not only you but maybe just how I feel about you mainly

I've heard about you my whole life until this
Day
That all it takes to know you is to kneel down and pray

But how is it that there's times I've tried to do it
And I feel nothing
And I wonder am I doing something wrong am
I not fully trusting?
I feel like I'm crazy in a room all alone trying to
Talk to someone I have never seen

Or I'm just being an over thinker that's what
I've always come to be
But why can't l hear you the way others do?
I hear it all the time from people who claim to
Hear you, and id like to know if it's true

Cause there's times I'm crying my eyes out
And I really can't feel you
All the times I called out to you and would
Scream, "God I need you!"

But I don't know where you are
L'd like to think you're close
But it feels as if
You're far...

[VERSE 1: E.R.I.C.K.]

Is their anyone even around?
I'm on the ground, don't hear a sound, don't hear a sound

You're supposed to be, my closest friend
Yet I'm pose to the fact you're not listening

Maybe too busy or uninterested
Nobody here, while suffering

I sit and reminisce, I remember when together we lived, we used to coexist

Now, we're different, so distant
It gets to me, and I miss it

I can feel a hole inside my soul
Feeling alone nobody knows

Sitting in my room trying to hear
But I'm hearing nothing
Hearing nothing!

[HOOK]

You are here
I know you're here
As I come to you
I know you're drawing near
You are here
You are here

[VERSE 2: E.R.I.C.K.]

It's like every single day
Trying to find a way to rekindle my way
Kneeling down, talking to the wall as I pray again

Heart beatin. Yet weeping
Trying to keep in the faith, while I'm feeling far away

Distractions bubble in my brain
Rather sleep it away
Right as I went to lay my head
Heard a voice, "Get out of bed!"

Had no more choice, fell on the floor
This time, for you, my heart transform

I can feel your presence once more

This is what I crave, what I've always wanted
I'mma grab hold, and i'll never drop it

Keep you near my heart
Like you was a locket, lock it

[HOOK]

You are here
I know you're here
As I come to you
I know you're drawing near
You are here
You are here

[VERSE 3: E.R.I.C.K.]

Guess that my struggles
Have just been a process
A couple of things
That I have been crossing

Time goes by and I sit here
People may say that I'm wasting my years
Yeah, I'm sure they're sincere

Though from time to time it still may appear, like you've disappeared
But it's just way to clear that you're working in secret, so I know that you're near

I have decided to search for your presence through all of my years

Take my whole heart for the rest of my days, give me the strength to stay in your ways

This is my promise, keep it close to my chest, lay down my life, until my last breathe

[HOOK]

You are here
I know you're here
As I come to you
I know you're drawing near
You are here
You are here