5am thoughts 💔

[Verse]
Alone after midnight, some things never change
I wish I could open up, but it’s not the same
I can’t understand why I’m so different
I try to make people feel good, as if I was heaven sent
Raining so hard, no umbrella can stop it
It’s my tears from all of this, I wish I could end it
I want to be here, but then it’s so hard
Why keep this life when it’s probably better on Mars
I miss her, it’s not even who you might think
I’m over that, in fact I’m on my 7th drink
I can’t hold back and stop, she’s just so lovely
But the conversation always ends abruptly
How can I be this attached to someone that will probably never be mine
At some point I have to learn to draw the line
But it’s these feelings I just can’t seem to hide
Nights like these I dream about driving through the city
Turn on that lo-fi, let's enjoy the moment, you see
I look into your brown eyes, they’re so pretty
There’s so much we could do when it’s just you and me
Forever alone, why’s it gotta be that way
When it’s fairy tale memories waitin' to be made
I wish I could confront but I am too afraid
Maybe one day the puzzle pieces will be laid (will be laid, will be laid)