(4am) loops

after all this pain ive endured
i still suffer this abuse
now i just feed your destruction
and watch at your amuse.
from this cancer that eats away at me
i guess its no surprise
im a corpse in disguise
with no where to hide.
with nothing to gain, i receive all the pain
i search for my way to make things okay
just obstacles that tie the same
i could try to survive this game.
who are you to lie
who are you to hide behind that high
of your self obsessed mind.
im not weak , im not afraid, im not scared
i could try to make things okay, but id have to go away.
im scared to release
im scared of beneath
im scared of you and im scared of we
i make moments into time and you make time into misery, how can i wake up from this bad dream one without you or me