44 Bars (Remix)

[Intro]
Yeah, yeah

[Verse]
Yeah
I hate it when I get apprehensive and introspective
The world seems so much darker when you're looking through my lenses
Penny for your thoughts? The phrase has gotten so expensive
The music is the only way I can try be expressive
Stuck between primal instinct and platonic friendship
Bleed for isolation from the past tense
Or escapades into alternate dimensions. Anything to hide
Exposing a small piece of my mind for some peace of mind
It's hard to read between the lines when you're walking a thin one
And just a misplaced syllable could mean war, and some
So I live by ambiguity hoping I'll see gratuity
My presumed ingenuity gets a 21 gun salute
Accompanied by a motorcade orchids and some anemones
It's heavenly. Ironic, right?
Traded my starry eyes for insomnia induced star gazing nights
I need a trip, I need a high
I prayed and prayed to God that somehow I could meet you twice
Never thought I'd have to lose you once, that's one too many times
Often times I refrain from saying this to your face
Walks down memory lane, they just don't suit you the same
Replaced the pain with faces and countless pictures you paint
Like Van Gogh every masterpiece makes you that bit more insane
Anyway, that's probably not for me to speak on
Especially when I've got skeletons in my living room
Discouraged when the blog and music ain't getting the numbers
Remembered it ain't 'bout the difference, but making a difference
Easier said than done til you find yourself in that position
Easier said than done when you have got some means of living
Easier said than done when you ain't moving from eviction notice to eviction notice
And the silver spoon is more than a representation it's reality
Get out of jail free
Seems that's all that's needed for y'all to take a jab at me
I get it
But does that really mean shit?
When I'd rather be pushing daises than pushing a Mercedes
And making money Fugazy, it's all so crazy
The myriad of mazes we make really amazes me
Constantly doubting if this is the path I'm meant to walk
Constantly feels like I'm watching the numbers on the clock
I need a distraction, I need some direction
Never knew this blessing would turn into the biggest of burdens