3AM

[Verse: DEADCRW]
As of late i feel as though I'm displaying too many emotions
I dont know if I can mask it
Feelings just go and I can't grasp it, heads a hot air balloon, bodys a basket
Drifting into the clouds over Earths axis
Into the mist like the smoke of twenty six spliffs
And by twenty six if, I dont have a couple bricks, ready the casket
Ready to end this, I meant this
Whats the point going hard like cement is if my only accomplishments
Are illegal consequences, and a compliment to a cons sequence
I dread this, feel like lifes endless
In opportunity, but after I hit puberty
Life shifted from wanting to catch worms to feeding these birds seeds
The epitome of a piece of shit
Not a, care in the world, I just sit in a whirl and beat my dick
I come from a home of high expectations
Brothers and sisters at graduation, im at probation
Sleep deprivation, Im up at late hours debating my time of detonation
Or if Hell's my destination
A walking time bomb, every drug is what im on
And I just wish I coulda been a better gift to my mom
Once an aspiring athlete to be joining the class elite
Now a conspiring addict, beat, conjoining obsolete
Got nothing going in my direction
In cops cars ive landed in, abandonment for going with my discretion
A walk in my shoes will truly prove why Im filled with depression
Ain't nothing good thats worth a mention
I finally understand what its like to feel emptiness
And like previously mentioned, why i dwell in twenty spliffs
Its a cold world but my heart is colder
I give the world a cold shoulder, I feel like Im an old soldier
Too many things ive done that im ashamed of
And many reasons why I wanna blow my brains off