21 BIRTHDAY [untitled_0009]]

[Intro: JOHNNASCUS]
Johnnascus...
Welcome back...
To the dark side of nature
It’s been.. what feels like years...
I'm not here to fool you...
Come here again, and live here forever...
Please
Here we go, okay
Here we go, okay
Here we go, okay, yuh

[Chorus: JOHNNASCUS]
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
My time is fading (yea)
Soul is waning (yea)
Feeling mainy (yea)
Foggy Cranium

[verse 1: JOHNNASCUS]
My younger self would hate the person that I've become
Losing rhythm, can't find thе beat to my own drum
This world ain't for me, or maybe I don't wanna grow up
But what's growing up? Cause I don't wanna have my soul crushed

[Interlude: JOHNNASCUS]
Kumo
Kumo
Kumo
Kumo
Kumo
Kumo
Kumo
Kumo
Kumo
Kumo
Kumo
Kumo
Kumo
I want to live a life outside this system
Travel to a world outside the solar system
And dance to my rhythm

[Verse 2: JOHNNASCUS]
Yeah!
Let's fucking go, yeah!
Still fucked up in the head
Try to make folks accept me
Even if they don't care about me
Maybe it's cause I don't about care myself
Wanna be ignored to dig deeper in the well
In the well
IN THE WELL!
In the fucking well, I just drown myself in despair
Look at the world, it's so far from here
I'm sinking in my own
Can't climb the walls
It is getting darker
There are no walls
See the lights spotters
In my own thoughts
Cannot move, I'm faltered
Cannot move, I’m faltered
You can't fucking alter
(You can't fucking alter)

[Chorus: JOHNNASCUS]
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
21st Birthday, oh
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
21st Birthday

[Verse 3: JOHNNASCUS]
And uhm
I'm not special, and no one really is (yuh)
And the glass half empty (yuh)
Pessimistic little bitch
Always feel so envy
Towards every human (yeah)
Don't wanna feel this empty and prolonged sadness
What's the point of working, if it leads to nothing (I don't know, man)
What's the point of something, if there's no fulfillment
Why is life important, (fuck)
If I didn't choose it
There's no point of living here (yuh, yuh)
If you cannot move it, yuh
Move the world, change the world
I can do that in this video game (yuh)
Save the world, get the girl ([?])
Live a life, of peace and adventure
We make a mistake (yuh)
Can go back to where it saved me
Speaking of saving...

[Outro]
Checkpoint:
21 years old...
I feel like, I've wasted the past 4-5 years of my life
And there's always this feeling that everything I have now
Will soon be gone
I've been making music for the past 5 years
And I still don't know at times if this is what I want to do
I feel like I'll just be forgotten in the next few years
People and friends I have now will soon just forget about me
I feel like I can't even form good connections with people
Because I'm in my head too much
Somedays I just wake up, and the day is already over
I feel trapped in life, and don't know what to do
Some days I just want to end it all, but tell myself things will get better
I just don't want to live a life of misery
I can't really open up to people about how I honestly feel a lot of the time
Cause I think I'll just end up being a type of burden to them
So I'm just expressing stuff here
I hope I can find a purpose in life
Or just something that brings me long term happiness, and fulfillment
I don't want to kill myself
Or live an a- an autonomous, autopilot, dead life

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June 23rd 2020
6:36 AM
Bedroom

(Later that following night...)