2013

[Intro]
Sometimes we can romanticise the past too much
And it ends up killing us inside
And even though we know it's bad for us
We do it anyway
But that's what makes us human

[Verse]
Take it back to when this shit was simple now I’m a cursed being
I’m feeling nostalgic, my memories starts to irk me
Shadows from the past coming back and it hurts, see
Everything was different in 2013
I was just a boy, just a kid, like the rest of them
Almost blended in, but I did it standing next to them
Everyday I thought about the future, so depressed in them
I thought better days would come but those were the best of them
Nothing but dumb, I was young, and I thought I was in love
I thought that girl was the one, she put her hair in a bun
She gave me kisses and hugs, she made me happy as fuck
I was someone she could trust, until I fucked it all up
I won’t forget where I’m from, I’m leaving here either way
This is the place I grew up, I hope they keep it the same
I’m moving on, that’s enough, so there’s no reason to stay
Recalling all that I’ve done, things I decrypt in my brain
I remember nights I would lie down on the train tracks
Looking at the stars fall, maybe they were spacecrafts
Tears falling from my face, demons made the rain dance
Dempsey had a deathwish so he could end the pain fast
I was a loner that nobody noticed
A saddest remote is when I’m at my lowest
I’m under hypnosis, I’m somewhat a poet
That’s made of destruction and broken components
Looks are deceiving, I’m silently screaming
I hate when they tease me, it’s hard enough breathing
And finding a meaning in wanting and needing
I’m really not living, my heart is just beating
At times when I’m sleeping, I feel like I’m leaving the planet
I’m weeping alone in a coffin
We’re just repeating the process of grieving
But maybe I’m dreaming, I do that shit often
Love is appealing but I don’t believe in it
God is appealing but I don’t believe in him
Look in the mirror, now what do you see in it
Trapped in my mind and I don’t wanna be in it

[Outro]
And I know I might be lost forever but
I'll always search for myself
Always