19

[Verse 1]
I finally found that jacket
That "Denims are a winter" coat my aunt bought me years ago
I reach into the pockets
And found a crumpled airplane ticket, 2020, Chicago
I used to fly so often
I got high off, red-eye flights and singing 2000s
Now I work in an office
I rack my mind for reasons why I'm better off without it

[Pre-Chorus]
I guess I'm fine, life is nice
I'm lucky 'cause I actually really like my nine to five
But I can't lie, deep inside
I'm missing the adrenaline and sleepless nights

[Chorus]
And I get this vision that I'm thirty-five
Settled down in the suburbs, someonе's wife
I have a picture-pеrfect upper-middle-class life
And I'm comfortably distracted most of the time
But then, I'll see a picture from when I was nineteen
And get a little jealous of the girl I used to be
I was living in a world of endless possibility
I miss the heartbreak, the chaos, the free

[Verse 2]
Isn't this what I wanted?
A sense of stability and change in my pocket
But now that I finally have it
I'm finding that the grass ain't as green as they promised

[Pre-Chorus]
I guess I'm fine, life is nice
I'm lucky 'cause I actually really like my nine to five
But I can't lie, deep inside
I'm missing the adrenaline and sleepless nights

[Chorus]
And I get this vision that I'm thirty-five
Settled down in the suburbs, someone's wife
I have a picture-perfect upper-middle-class life
And I'm comfortably distracted most of the time
But then, I'll see a picture from when I was nineteen
And get a little jealous of the girl I used to be
I was living in a world of endless possibility
I miss the heartbreak, the chaos, the free, oh-ooh

[Bridge]
I pray this curse won't last forever
I feel so somber in discomfort

[Outro]
I'll see a picture from when I was nineteen (When I was nineteen)
And get a little jealous of the girl I used to be (Used to be)
I was living in a world of endless possibility
I miss the heartbreak, the chaos, the free