18

(I was only 18)
(You got in my psyche)
(Didn't really know enough, oh)

I was only 18
You got in my psyche
Didn't really know enough
Felt the stars aligning
Daydreams of a dumb kid
Back into the rabbit hole

Haunted from times we were birds of a feather
Like I had a dream there were blue skies forever
I'm drenched up in sweat every morning, its bad and
I just wanted you to know
I stare at my ceiling and go on/off, heads up
I'm drowning in visions of you, can't escape 'em
I don’t know how to lay low

I just wanna know that you're okay
Cause I'm still caught in line in everyway
I can see you right up here with me
But you wanna give it up, the day that you gave me up

You were only 18
Lost on all of your dreams
Told you you shouldve kept 'em up
I still got your room key
Thinking what we could be
Like it doest tear me up

Haunted from times we were birds of a feather
Like I had a dream there were blue skies forever
I'm caught in the heat so I roll out the window
I air out the thoughts but without 'em im see through
Yeah I had a dream we were down for forever
I'm drenched up in sweat im just banging my head
I can't seem to get rid of this weather, whether you know

Cause I just wanna know that you're okay
Cause I'm still caught in line in everyway
I can see you right up here with me
But you wanna give it up, the day that you gave me up

I might never get enough
Dont tell me to give you up
Know I'm putting effort but I cannot help it to wonder if im enough
If back then I gave enough, I'd rather be dead you know
Know I'm putting effort but I cannot help it to wonder but that's enough
I'd rather be dead you know
If i gotta give you up
Just know that I'm finished, nothing left to give and I wonder if I'm enough
Just know that I'm finished, nothing left to give and I'm here overthinking and wondering if back then I gave enough