18.05. Prelude

It was just this total shattering, and my mind just opened and I started thinking of all these different things. And in that sense it was beautiful, I found it was how I found my... the first time I had ever experienced a real connection to the universe. Where I really felt like a part of this, that I was this, this was me, it was just like incredible. In so simp- yeah, ju- I mean just absolutely amazing. And the- then I kept going. And then I went way too far. And then it got scary