11/28/19

I feel like recording this
Um because maybe it will help
Or mmh, it will be useful
In some kind of way
I'm currently struggling a lot with my brain
And my mental health and
You think it's funny that when I was younger
I was like 14 or 13, or like maybe even 15
I thought that like being mentally ill is glamorous
That's a fucking lie and please do not believe it
Struggling with your mental health is just fucking pain
And annoying and it fucks up your whole life
Um, it's not glamorous, not at all
It's not chic, it's not mysterious
It's just, it just sucks
Yeah, it just sucks
So whatever you think or whatever you see
Umm, in the media
Whatever people tell you or whenever you see someone struggling with mental health that you think is interesting or
Cool or mysterious, that's not, that's not reality
Reality is that it's just painful
And messes up your whole life
And existence
And it kills all your relationships
It literally does
I'm the best example for that
So just, yeah
I mean, you, it's not like you decide to be a certain kind of way
Or that your brain works a certain kind of way
So if you get mentally ill, you get mentally ill
That's no drama, like, people can still live a happy life and I
I'm, well right now not, but I'm in general kinda sure that I will live a life that has purpose and meaning
But there are people that I have a connection with
That, you know, think I'm a nice person but
Just think it's important to know that
Struggling mentally, mentally is not a trend
It's not glamorous, it's not chic, it's not something that
Is fashionable, because sometimes I think it's fashionable
I see all these songs that say borderline or
Yeah people who use these terms so
Yeah in just a weird kinda way, in a very sloppy kinda way
And it's fine it's just a term
But just be aware struggling mentally is not glamorous
And not chic or cool
That's what I wanted to say, um, yeah
Maybe you can relate, maybe you can not relate but
If you can relate in the future or this comes
Tink this crosses your way, that you've head this
And I think it's important so take care of yourself and your mental health