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[Verse]
My fam's hungry, we haven't eaten food for days and I'm not a forklift but I'm movin wait
Some days are good and some are bad but even in my best times I'm still hungry as
My fam come before the money but I'm after cash
Get it? Before the money but I'm after cash
If I make a mill then I'll pass it back, give half to my mum the other to dad
Then I'll go and make some more and I can that's why these faggots hate me for
Cause I don't stop and I never will and I ain't talkin bout rap if I get a deal
Dudes actin like they made of steel, we're all flesh and bone we breathe the same air so I aim to kill
I'd give it all and take my own for my fam, so proud I watched my little brother grow to a man
There's nothin more that make me richer so when I'm with the fam I am always takin pictures
Bury me with my photo album when I die so I know that I'm not alone at the end of time
Back in '09 I had plenty friends, now I'm 22 and hardly have any left
Was it me who changed? or was it them? Four years have gone past still ain't got a text
But that's cool I ain't tryna sweat, if heat comes I've got more tools than Mitre 10
And I ain't tryna hide nah I feel pain, mates dying cuts deeper than a steel blade
That's why I'm wearing all these scars, one for each wear em to the grave remember who they are
Who they were and the people that they would've been
I just pray if I get to heaven that they look for me
But right now I'm still alive, I'm not the only one
Half my fam are still here and I know they love me
So I stand tall knowing that I'll never quit, any other man in my shoes would've ended it
Livin on the dole I ain't seein any benefits, I'm so over your head's like heaven is
But fuck it I ain't rappin for the props and gems, I'm just writin all this shit to get it off my chest
And rappers wanna talk about their fanbase, the fuck would they care? They wouldn't even know their fans' names
But I'm thankful so I care what my fans' say, without them I'd probably never do this mixtape
24/7 askin me when it's droppin, you should see the messages they send to my inbox
They give me motivation so I'll tell em now, your letters hit me deep so I'm always here to help you out
And I know that we've never met, but dudes I'd never met have grown to my best of friends
And they're mates that I call mates for life, so if you write to me I'll always reply
I know at times that I'm awkward and quiet but that's who I am I was born with this mind
To say I'm okay is more than a lie and pretendin that I am has taken all of my pride
Yeah, my homie told me I could make a mill, but what's the point if both my older brothers hate me still?
I took their place and I made it mine, somebody had to look after River so I raised him right
He's the only one I have left when he went blind I still remember what my dad said
He took me out the back and he sat me down and told me now I'm the man of the house
Yeah so I stepped up and I'm still standing, until the day I die I'll be with family
Others came and they went but the ones that remain I got their names' on my neck
Yeah I could rap about this shit for days, 22 years worth that's a lot of pain
Some things that I've done I ain't gonna say, every man has two sides love and hate
I hold my cards' close to my chest like Eric Clapton's son arm over the edge
I feel like I can't win but I won't lose everything that I've been through I was supposed to
My friends list gets smaller but my crew has grown, the best revenge is not to mention people that I used to know
Cause I ain't givin daps the time I have or any thought, they will fade away I'll be remembered when I'm dead and gone
And people mad cause I moved away, if friendship is God given then I'm losin faith
I packed my bags then departed, I set sail on my own, Jesse Martin
I went from rain and concrete to sun and sand, I had to leave my brother Grant I hope he understands
But it's hard cause I know what he's going through, one day I'll have him waking up to an ocean view
Fuck album sales, if it will or won't sell, I'm stressed about my brother's appeal I hope it goes well
Payin lawyers more to fight harder, cause the coppers slapped him with another five charges
Last time we spoke I let em know that I'll have em both flyin interstate when it's over
But for now I'm doing what I can, if I can't do it for myself, I'll do it for my fam, peace