07: wounds, epilogue - IN MY BONES

[Intro: ursa]
I was never taught to run away, to leave when things get hard
I learned that
I thought it was a skill, but it’s holding me back
I want to start over
I am not running away this time
I can’t do that again
I’ve lost too many
Every time I close my eyes, I see their faces
I could’ve saved them
But I chose to run instead
Not this time
I’ll fight, I’ll fight
I’ll fight!

[Chorus]
I gotta stop running away
It’s in my bones and it’s aching every way
Can’t hold you back, no I won’t let you stay
Not trying to run I just wanna hide away
I need to stop looking back at those days
No I cannot go back to that place
Sometimes I just gotta look the other way
Maybe if I didn’t you’d still be here today

[Verse]
Every soul I’ve touched, I’ve turned that shit to ash
How you gonna kiss somebody then stab them in their back
I don’t have much more time, she took all that I had
All that shit I said I was just trying make you laugh (hahaha)
Closing up the pipeline, you’re soon to be unmasked
Every glance we shared maybe that’s just in my head
Everything they claim about me, can’t say that’s my bad
Everything I do, you know I gotta face the mask

[Bridge]
Was it really worth it this time? The second time you left my life
Was it really worth it this time? I should have had a chance to make it right
Did I make it worth it for you? Am I now worthy of your love?
Like did I give enough? I know I made it about me but I should’ve made it about us

[Chorus]
I gotta stop running away
It’s in my bones and it’s aching every way
Can’t hold you back, no I won’t let you stay
Not trying to run I just wanna hide away
I need to stop looking back at those days
No I cannot go back to that place
Sometimes I just gotta look the other way
Maybe if I didn’t you’d still be here today