If I Can’t Hear The Music

[Saki Arima: spoken]
Follow the score, Kōsei

[Kōsei Arima: Verse 1]
I’m sorry I have failed
I wanted to do better
I tried to be the son who you expected me to be

[Saki: spoken]
Follow the score precisely

[Kōsei: sung]
I’ve shamed this broken home
I’ve lost to this piano
But still, I’m in the battle, I'm my own worst enemy

[Saki: spoken]
It has to be perfect

[Kōsei: Pre-Chorus]
Where’s my choice?
The black or white voice?
Thrown into the water, but I’ve never swam
Replaying your death
Holding my breath
I’m not mad, I can’t stand who I am

[Chorus]
If I can’t hear the music
If I can’t hear the sound
Then I’ll drown in the memory
I’m gasping for air
Is my answer out there?
What more can I give?
Help me, how can I live
If I can’t hear the music?
Though I know it by heart
Every note disappears from me
Oh, Mother, forgive me
You can’t be here with me
I’ll go on, but how
If I can’t hear the music right now

[Verse 2]
The human metronome
Played every phrase in rhythm
Don’t wanna be the victim, but now
I have lost my way
I can’t win this war
If I lay down my weapon
It’s me against the shadow of the boy who used to play

[Pre-Chorus]
I can’t recognize these black and white lies
They’re mocking what’s left of all that I knew
In over my head, I'll end up I’m dead
Mother, please tell me what to do

[Chorus]
If I can’t hear the music
If I can’t hear the sound
Then I’ll drown in the memory
The time is too high
Didn’t want you to die
I’ve got no more to give
Help me, how can I live
If I can’t hear the music
As the waves take me out
Oh, the silence is deafening
Oh, Mother, it kills me
To know that I’m guilty
I’ll go on, but how
If I can’t hear the music right now

[Kōsei (Ensemble): Bridge]
My one opponent (Ah)
Staring at me
Can you save me? (Ah)
Why won’t you save me?
God, I hate you (Ah, ah, ah)
But I need you
To save me from myself

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s the end of my rope (Rope)
I’m choking on hope (On hope)
If I let go, will I be free? (Go)
No one understands (No one understands)
The blood on my hands (My hands)
Mother, where are you? (Ah)
Please don’t hate me (Ah)

[Saki: spoken]
I can’t hold your hand forever, Kōsei
I can’t hold your hand once I’m gone

[Kōsei: Chorus]
If I can’t hear the music
If I can’t hear the sound
Let me drown in the memory
I’m lost on my own in this cursed monotone
I’ve got no more to give
Help me, I want to live
If I can’t hear the music
If I’ve got no way out
Then I'm ending your legacy
Can you hear me crying?
I’m living or dying
I’ll go on but how
If I can’t hear the music right now?