When I Tell You

When I tell you what happened
Would you even care, would you just stare
The monster creeps inside my bed
Every blood moon, for 3 years in my head
I'm haunted, by the feel of my legs
Wish I could have been saved
4 times round, wish I would've been brave
When I tell you, When I tell you

Remember when I told you nothin happened
Wish I was more honest, way back when
He grabbed my thigh and held me close
Cold case story, with no clothes
It's a reoccurring nightmare, like a reel
Plays in my head all too well and too real
I'm dying, the child in me is dying
Why didn't you save me?
Is it my masculinity?
What was I to do at 11?
Was it never strange i was gone until 7?
Oh-oh, Oh-oh, Oh

Wish you woulda left me wondering
How it felt to live in this hell
Wish I could go back in time
Tell myself to run and hide

When I tell you what happened
Would you even care, would you just stare
The monster creeps inside my bed
Every blood moon, for 3 years in my head
I'm haunted, by the feel of my legs
Wish I could have been saved
4 times round, wish i would've been brave
When I tell you, When i tell you

It all happened way too soon
No child should ever endure that
Nobody should have to live with that
12 years old, learned to hide how i felt
Go on live my life alone, be a man
It's a phase you'll grow
Why wasn't anyone there to protect me
Walked into that house one thing, out another
Had aches all over my body
Please just listen, somebody
You killed who i used to be
So carefree and happy
What the fuck were you doing to help me
What the fuck now i feel so fucking lonely