Eat The World

I was the
type of girl
to swallow

the world
whole ingest
it all

i felt too
much needed
too much

there
would never
be enough

love
insatiable
endless
black hole

of
everythingness
starving

for
everything
i didn't need

malnourished
by placebos
of love

vitamins
called
successattentionmoneyfame

pissed out
unaware
into luxurious

japanese
toilet bowls
nothing

could touch
the sides of
my crippling

black star
void jet black

hole of noise
no
boyfriend magazinе
cover chart sale

sold
out tour million
dollar contract could

satiate
my stomach
achе for love

i thought if
i ate the world
i would finally

be full
i would never
be hungry again

i was wrong
of course i was
this isnt a movie

this is real
life a ragged
jagged pill of

a life
a whirl of

clothescars
photoshootsplanes
tearstraumasstudiostrains

approve approve approve
try try try
grind grind grind

to be
heard, seen
valued, understood

by men
with no knowledge
of real womanhood

who held
my power in
their purses

owned
my choruses
and my verses

but now

i am free

of what i had
to sever

i am free

of the hunger
lighter than feather

I AM free

of those men
and prolific like heather

i ate the

whole world
and i'll eat it

FOREVER