Effortless

Effortless
Words & Music by Allison Crowe

I'm trying not to try so hard
Makes me wonder if it's really effortless
Or if I'm fooling myself?
'Cause if I have to put so much of me
Into trying not to care
Where am I then?
I'm lying

And do you see the way I walk away?
I never really know what I should say
So it comes out wrong
If it comes out at all

So I straighten myself out
I bring me back down
"Don't be ridiculous
You are so wrong."
But then I'm drifting
On a wave of thought
I get lost in the tides
And I can barely recognize myself

I don't mind
'Cause do you see the way I walk away?
I never really know what I should say
So it comes out wrong
If it comes out at all

So I try to act the way I would
If I was someone that wasn't me
But you wipe that away, don't you?
And I am falling down
I am tripping on words
I am out of my mind
You know, this is not like me
I'm not usually happy, I swear

And do you see the way I walk away?
I never really know what I should say
So it comes out wrong

And I turn my back
And I don't look back
I am unafraid...

...but really I'm just kidding

I'm terrified
And I think I like it

And I don't care if I look ridiculous
Trying to be effortless