​soul salvage // future diary

[Chorus]
I'm a heathen and my demons fightin' me still
But they been fuckin up, so my cup 93 til
You know the line, yall get the gist, although I didn't say it
I take my thoughts into the field, my feet hit the pavement
I'm a heathen and my demons fightin' me still
But they been fuckin up, so my cup 93 til
You know the line, you get the gist, although I didn't say it
Y'all want the verse, I turn the key and I initiate it

[Verse 1]
15 tracks, bumpin' Doris unexpectedly
Same age, minus 1, I knew what was next for me
It's destiny, but there was no impressing my pеdigree
They'd probably prefer mе consuming some coke and ecstasy
So I'm left to my devices, gotta grind all by my lonely
In the game, before the internet would let me meet the homies
Before I lost and found myself a couple dozen moments
Was askin' why, but realized what that was meant to show me
That I don't need shit, except a reason
To keep on living, so I put it on a beat, bitch
And now I'm better than I've ever been
Well, that's what I tell myself, but it's been harder to believe since
I got fucked up a couple weeks, I don't remember that
I said some shit I didn't mean, I got a temper that
Only shows its face at the least opportune time
I wish my mind was on the music, but it's you and I

[Verse 2]
Truth, lies, who, why?
Makes me feel like I'm insane
Blindly hack like Yuno, I been trapped in a survival game
When they approach me, take a look at what they stand to gain
And that's the reason strangers bein' sweet like candy canes
The blood, it clashes with my skin, it looks like it's the former
But the scars will fill the cracks, like some brick and mortar
The girl I used to be, I know I can't go back to warn her
Instead, I try to see my world gettin' warmer
5-year plan, all cards on the table
Starts a stampede of these thoughts, like a brawl in the stables
What I see down the line for me is awful and painful
I guess I see the beauty in it, starvin' but able
To hold on
Stick to the program
My personality will get as calloused as both hands
Could stretch myself thin at the dawn of a romance
But if I play my cards right, there won't be no chance

[Outro]
Alrighty folks, that last song was “soul salvage // future diary” by Jozie Haze…
Two slashes, that’s…weird I don't know why she would choose to do that
Doesn't really seem like there’s a point to it, but hey…
What do I know?
Anyways, up next on the Super Sounds of the Cypher weekend, we’re gonna keep it rolling with another certified Jozie Haze Classic
“shackles”
Stay tuned, and keep it groovy out there, people
Is that a thing people say still…?