House of Cards, Part I

In my life I couldn't put things to the right
On covered miles you can't find my fleeting marks
Worn out shoes, half read books, scarps of food
Failure everywhere, it's a state that I can't bare

Up to now I played the game
Tried to create castles in Spain
But I'm afraid that too much time
Can't be wasted on such a crime

In my life I couldn't use the given cards
I let the losers win and I built my house of cards
It's from hopes, passed up chances, lonely walks
Hand strokes, needed body heat, all these surroundеd me like walls

Up to now I played thе game
Tried to create castles in Spain
But I'm afraid that too much time
Can't be wasted on such a crime