​if you could see me now

Yeah, I don't got bars man, I just have feelin's man
I've been sittin in the shower
Pretendin that rain drops fallin over my head
In over my head
And everyday I'm feelin more hollow
Can't get out of my bed
My sheets seem to swallow me and my body from top to the bottom
Pray that the quicksand don't go take my brother in
Cuz he's fallin and it's in my fathers hands now
Losin touch with my friends
Missin the touch of your skin
As old doors close, new ones open
Hope that I don't miss my chance, keep my head straight
If I'm bein honest then I'm losin focus
If I'm bein honest, I've been smokin man
Days come and go in a haze
Mind's tricky to navigate
I'm stuck in a maze
Faded like an old photograph
That fell out the frame, but I'm flippin the page
My heart's filled with love, but brain's filled with rage
Impulsive but caged, a little deranged
Makin small talk with myself and a bottle of Henessy to the face
I've been sitting in the shower
Pretending that rain drops falling over my head
In over my head
And everyday I'm feelin more hollow
Can't get up out of my bed
And I've been layin here for a minute now
Gotta pick myself up
Brush the plaque off my teeth, pull the smoke down to my lungs
It's comforting to me, don't get comfortable with me
I'm warning you now