It’s Hard

Sitting listening to the troubles of a tormented artist
My mind and my body
I ain't sure who worked the hardest
My body been over flowing with emotions for years
My mind say the only way to get it out is my tears
So I seat and I cry
Every night in my room
That's why I plan to die so every night in my tomb
Got so much pain in my heart I don't know where to start
I take it from the beginning
Hold up
Born in Mississippi August Twenty-Second
Uno Nueve Ocho Siete
Showered with love, mommas first kid
So all the hammy downs around I got first dibs
Was raised right
Treat em how you wanna be treated
That's good advice but give it to them kids they need it
Started a team with my niggas and decided to lead it
Now just one win to make up for the times I got defeated
I do this shit from that bottomless pit I call my gut
Ain't no more love in this world for a girl It's all a nut
They Fucking for nothing and wonder why we call em sluts
God take me back to when they slapped you for touching they butt
That's how my old soul
Don't feel like I belong
Doing shit on my own
They don't tell this guy be strong
Big city, all alone
Trying to make my ends meet
Shit is wicked in this house
None of my friends speak
I act like I don't feel nothing, really I do
I'm sensitive as hell man
No really, it's true
I got no problem with getting quiet
I get quiet too
When you act you don't want me around what am I to do?
See, when I get mad I don't take it out on you
At least I hope I don't
If I do I'm sorry for
Worked hard on that card
Meant every word I wrote
No thanks no appreciated not a word spoke
Never do that again
Yeah that was dumb
Maybe it's for the best I'm slowly going numb
Guess that's the way to be
The worlds changing me but my right hand is the letter after a b c
That ain't the half of it
You going to love this
In a relationship, straight loveless
I told my girl I meet celebrities she act a fool
I tell her I'm close to my dreams and she just say 'cool'
What the fuck man I want affection
A million miles and I'm worry about who she sexing
I help her out in every way you could imagine
But now when I'm talking to her she act like I be nagging
What the fuck is up
Truth is deep down I feel like I'm a leave her
She did me wrong so that was harder for me to believer her
But she don't understand right now I really need her
She tell me she love me every day and I be a diva
Say go baby keep pushing I'm riding with ya
I need to hear your voice
Girl all I got is pictures
I'm tatting scriptures on my arms to keep the lord with me
Steady thinking about shorty that jersey shore with me
Spit my heart out
These labels should be flowing me
Instead I'm getting the feeling like they bored with me
My head high but not my nose
Pray for everyone in my life but not my foes
Dig it
I painted this Picasso like I'm so strong
Indeed I am but at this point I'm so gone
Honestly my mental ain't fit to be around no pistol
Like I wanted my clause to be always aiming at my temple
I'm suicidal again
Dear lord help me
But I get confident fans telling me that they felt me
My just can't understand it
The only person who even call to check up on me is my nigga Landis
Damn it's hard