Ashamed

[Intro: Jonathan Hay]
The journey
That struggle

[Chorus: Mike Smith]
I'm so ashamed of how it got this way
I don't know what to do
I just don't feel like I'm still any good for you

[Scratches: DJ Revolution]
All the pressure and pain
Tryna maintain
Drowning my sorrows
Such shame
All the pressure and pain
Tryna maintain
All the pressure and pain
Drowning my sorrows
Such shame

[Verse: KXNG Crooked]
God, I told myself these are the words I'd never say
I'm my own worst opponent and it hurts in every way
You ever thought about smashing the mirrors in the house
So you don't have to see the same person that hurts you every day? I have, I'm shattered
Can I pick up the pieces before I pick up a piece and squeeze?
Just give up on breathing, go live up with Jesus
Give up, I'm leavin', sick of the freezing rain
Switch up the season, the reason, because I need some sunshine
This umbrella I'm under, while it's raining alcohol
See we're abusing each other
I'm just tryna drown my problems in a bottle of Jack Daniels
Let me talk to y'all about a couple of problems I can't handle
See my whole family's starvin', I need dollars to feed 'em
A dropout, nobody college degreed him
I went the block route, where cops playin' God with your freedom
What's the odds? I'ma beat 'em
All of my friends, man they're gone when I need 'em
The same song plays over and over
My life's bullshit, it's getting older and older
I pour more Jack over the soda, told ya I hate being sober
Prob'ly need to meditate with Deepak Chopra and Oprah
I hope for hope, some meaning for tomorrow
And I wish I didn't drink, but ain't no genie in this bottle
I know, I gotta change and realize I'm highly worth it
But until then, my favorite excuse is "nobody's perfect"

[Chorus: Mike Smith]
I'm so ashamed of how it got this way
I don't know what to do
I just don't feel like I'm still any good for you

[Scratches: DJ Revolution]
All the pressure and pain
Tryna maintain
All the pressure and pain
Drowning my sorrows with bottles
Such shame
All the pressure and pain
Tryna maintain
All the pressure and pain
Look up in the mirror, my reflection is a damn shame
It's a shame, nobody else to blame
It's a shame, nobody else to blame
It's a shame, it's a shame, it's a shame
It's a shame, nobody else to blame
It's a shame, nobody else to blame
It's a shame, nobody else to blame

[Chorus: Mike Smith]
I'm so ashamed of how it got this way
I don't know what to do
I just don't feel like I'm still any good for you

[Scratches: DJ Revolution]
All the pressure and pain
Tryna maintain
Drowning my sorrows
Is a damn shame
All the pressure and pain
Tryna maintain
Drowning my sorrows
Such shame
All the pressure and pain
The pressure and pain
Pressure and pain